Eccentric Tea Woman

  I want, I feel the need to control everything in my life. If I don't control every little fiber of my life, then something will go wrong. I will fall down on my face in shame and embarrassment. I will be a failure.  I used to be like that until quite recently. Like last week recently. I received not-so-good news regarding my small business on Friday afternoon. The letter fell from my hand and my eyes focused on nothing before me. I felt as though I had done something wrong when only later I learned that it was an honest mistake that would be handled in time. I kept asking myself how this could have happened to me. After all, I was in control of everything, right? Wrong. Yes, I am the owner of a micro business (I have no employees and no storefront), yet it has been a struggle these past several years. I am now waiting to hear from a job that will hopefully get me out of this quagmire. I was frustrated with myself for not having everything under control - I thought everything...

  When I turned 50 several weeks ago, I also turned into a knitter. For the longest time, I thought that knitting was some form of magick that I would never be able to access, let alone understand. I also thought that knitting was a hobby that little old ladies did in their spare time. Once I turned 50 and delved into knitting, I found that I was dead wrong. My boyfriend purchased a beginner's kit for me, then I took off. I purchased bamboo needles, watched an excellent beginner's knitting video  , and made time for this new hobby. Yesterday, I delved deeper into the world of knitting and discovered many organizations, yarn suppliers, and people who are passionate and happy about their love of knitting. I, too, found a hidden joy I didn't know I had, for it dawned on me that knitting was a HOBBY. For the longest time, reading and later working with tea were my hobbies until they became my job. I had no idea that I didn't have any hobbies to claim as a way to calm down a...